How can I perceive depression as a gift? Also, Wisdom Breath sounds great, but can the practice sustain me in the long term over the years of my spiritual journey?
Once there was a devotee of Krishna by the name of Kunti who had everything and was always very happy. Kunti’s devotion was perfect, so Krishna asked, “Kunti, What do you want?” Kunti said, “Give me depression. Depression is a gift.”
This devotee knew that depression and hardship give opportunities to knock on the door of your heart and access that which cannot be accessed without going through the depression. So pain, stress, depression are all gifts. These sufferings give an opportunity to wake up. For those who are sleeping, it’s time to wake up. Time to walk on your journey. That is the gift, the positive side of depression. Depression is giving you an opportunity to find yourself and that is the gift. If it weren’t for the depression, you would not bother to find yourself. Depression, sickness, stress, negative thoughts that somebody hurts you — this is the universe knocking on your door. Open your heart. This is an opportunity for you. It’s a blessing. Seeing depression as a gift also helps to transcend the preferences and aversions of the mind.
Transcend the Push and Pull of Mind
Now, if you master the Wisdom Breath (inhale and exhale through both nostrils simultaneously and with the same force; see Overcome Depression: Part 2, you can transcend the mind. In the ancient writings, there is a beautiful sutra which reveals this tool that assures you will never be effected by your mind. Mind is depression. Mind is stress. Mind is problem. Mind is all about distinguishing this right and this is not right. The ancient sages described the mind as constant battle: you are here, but you want to be there. You are there but you want to be here. The sutra says the mind does not influence those who inhale and exhale through the wisdom breath. When both nostrils work, it’s called the breath of wisdom. When you are breathing the Wisdom Breath, the mind ceases its push and pull.
The ancient sages described the mind as constant battle: you are here, but you want to be there. You are there but you want to be here.
Be Aware of Vayadhi and Samadhi
When you are in a transcended state of consciousness, it’s called Samadhi. The state of consciousness Yayadhi is when the awareness is pushed and pulled; there is an internal conflict; the chatter sounds like this: it’s not like this; it’s like this; it’s not right; it’s wrong — but opposite of this conflicted chatter is called Samadhi. Samadhi means unity with all that is happening in the moment. There is no chatter; all is beautiful, and the whole being accepts the totality. The mind is not stuck in one concept, not stuck in the repetitive pattern of thinking I’m depressed. I’m depressed. I’m depressed. When there are so many things around that are going just perfectly as is, but you are stuck in one thought, that is called Vayadhi. You’re stuck in one thought. You’re engaged in a myopic, constricting thought I am depressed.
All thoughts and concepts that you identify with are in the nadis. Nadis are subtle veins. There are 72,000 nadis. When a certain nadi’s energy is stuck, you get stuck with one thought. Depression means that more than one nadi or meridian in your energetic body is stuck. It’s an energetic stuck that has nothing to do with your thoughts. The thoughts may contribute to the getting stuck. But ultimately, the play is the prana, the five winds.
Inner conflict is called Vayadhi. Inner unity is called Samadhi. When both nostrils work, you have to transcend your mind. You have to evolve; that is the law.
At Life’s Most Crucial Moments,
Both Nostrils Work Together
There are only two situations in life when both nostrils work for more than three seconds 1. When you are in samadhi (giving birth to God) 2. During the death process, at the time of death, both nostrils work. But this is a topic for another time. So for now, let’s return to focusing on coping with depression over the long term and keeping up with Wisdom Breath as your spiritual journey evolves.
You cannot be in depression if both nostrils are working.
You cannot be in depression if both nostrils are working. When you first begin to practice Wisdom Breath, you may have to force the breath; be committed; practice consciously with devotion. But as you go on over time, Wisdom Breath will become part and parcel of your being; Wisdom Breath will become Sahejah–easy; it becomes part of you when the breath is with your intention. After practicing with effort for a while, at some point both nostrils and your intention will dance in harmony. But before intuitive ease can be attained, you have to apply force, that is called Hatha Marga or Hatha Yoga. Before Saheja, intuitive ease, there is a process to enter intuitive ease.
Intuitive ease is your true nature. Before that is attained, the sages mentioned, you can use force in the beginning. The sages describe it this way: the seeker’s path is first masculine then it becomes feminine. When you are driven, aspiring, making effort, you are in the masculine part of you; now you have to use force. Over time, when the technique becomes saheja, meditation becomes saheja; the seeker’s journey becomes filled with intuitive ease; then you sit, you close your eyes, and you are transcended; this is more of the feminine quality of the journey and the feminine dimensions of your inner being.
But before that happens, force has to be used. You inhale forcefully through both nostrils you exhale forcefully through both nostrils. In the beginning, feel free to create loud sound with the breath because this sound will anchor you. Do it for one minute then relax. Do it for two minutes, then relax. Do it for three minutes and then relax. Progress in a gradual manner and your spiritual journey will be joyful. Avoid trying to accomplish the highest evolution in consciousness all at once because this will only frustrate you on your journey. Evolution in consciousness is a gradual, gracefully process. A flower does not open instantaneously. Enjoy the gradual nature of your process, your slow unfolding.
May you see depression as a gift that can motivate you onto a long-lasting, committed journey that guides you into long-lasting intuitive ease.
Click here to read Overcome Depression: Part 2
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© Yogi Amandeep Singh